Monday, September 13, 2010

Experience at Prabandhan, IIT Kanpur

Department of MBA , IIT Kanpur organized "Prabandhan"- its Annual Management Conclave.
That fine evening Chitra asked me nonchalantly if I would be interested in participating in one main event of the programme called "Saudagar"-The Marketing Extravaganza.It involved coming up with innovative marketing strategies for a flailing company given in their case study. Challenge was in the time limit- we had one day to submit the executive summary! I am always game for any new experience of this sort especially…so how can I ever say no? So we became a TEAM!
As we started working on it, I realized how much hard work is required for participating in such events. We took guidance from some very helpful seniors. We sincerely incorporated our learning and the executive summary started taking a satisfactory shape. After rounds of review and correction we submitted our proposal to Prabhandhan team and waited with fingers crossed. The result was supposed to come out the next day.
Entire day we waited. Inadvertently thoughts would deviate towards the forthcoming results and a wave of hope and excitement would run through us. But alas the website showed no result till the time I went to bed. At our 5 in the morning I was woken up with a call from Chitra, a look at the name flashing on screen gave me the joyous inkling of what the news would be. Yes we had cleared the first round. I felt rapturous when I saw the result on the website. We were among the 5 teams selected all over India and other teams who made it were from IIM Indore, XLRI Jamshedpur, FMS Delhi and IIT Kanpur. Seeing KJ Somaiya(SIMSR) name among them was huge pleasure.
Well then comes the grueling part. If preparing for the executive summary was hard-work then now we slogged to prepare the detailed document and presentation. Seniors helped us in understanding the concepts that were not yet taught to us and faculty members encouraged us. It was a very different and nice experience, a superb break away from the mundane day-to-day life of college where excitement comes by way of deadlines for submissions of assignments or doing presentations in class or going out somewhere for "time pass"(though there is hardly enough time……)
A journey to Kanpur from Mumbai is around 24 hours. We studiously took tickets in tatkal for sleeper class . It had been ages we traveled in sleeper coach since 3rd AC has become the norm of travelling these days. But I didn't mind because I wanted to relive those childhood days when we use to travel to "nanighar" like this feeling the air on our face and eating from all possible vendors that came selling their goodies…As we started early morning to catch the train our journey started on an adventurous note. First we didn't have the ticket print-out(kudos to our carelessness) and second, we started really late. We ran to the station, jumped local trains, prayed continuously and somehow caught the train in nick of the time. We showed ticket to TT on our laptop(thankfully only 1 came) and completed our presentation in train. As we reached Kanpur, it was raining heavily there. Chitra's all desire to see the place died down because from where we entered the city all we could see were dilapidated buildings, pot-holed roads…everything looked ages old… But the moment we took the turn towards IIT Kanpur, lo behold there was a magical change! The view that awaited us was simply heavenly. The impoverished surroundings changed suddenly to one of pure wonder, well-maintained huge green parks with peacocks dancing, beautiful houses, well spread out buildings, stadiums, foot-ball and cricket grounds, basket ball courts….welcome to IIT Kanpur! We were given a superb room in their VH(Visitor's Hostel) well equipped with A.C,T.V and whatever was needed. It even had a cute balcony overlooking a green meadow-like ground with a serene willow tree(I guess).
It all looked like dream world. We met the organizers of the Prabandhan,roamed around in IIT campus and also completed our presentation and practiced it.
The D-day of presentation came. We decked up nicely in our college formals. We thanked SIMSR of giving us the formals in time. All our competitors were there looking smart and confident in their formals. Surprisingly we didn't feel much nervous. We were not supposed to see others presentation. When our turn came we presented well though we felt we could have still done better. The judges grilled us on some questions. We answered but then had our own doubts when it got over. We returned to our room thinking its all over for us. There was hope but lot of apprehensions. We had to submit the accounts assignment in college the next day so we sat down with the work. In evening suddenly Chitra shouted….we have won the first prize..!!!I jumped…it was like the best thing to hear..!
Yes it was their on the website... "Dexterous Duo from SIMSR" had indeed won the first prize. We were elated…these last few days were wonderful…like a roller-coaster ride but soooo good! There were congratulations from all sides and it all felt so good. Now as I sit in the train writing all this…it feels all the more good to go back to college with the with the winner's prize for SIMSR.. :)

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Maha Mandi 2010

NITIE organized Maha Mandi 2010 where the volunteers had to come down on the roads of Mumbai and sell merchandize provided by an NGO Navnirmiti. Proceeds would be used for the welfare of under-privileged kids by the NGO. It was an opportunity to work for a noble cause as well as learn direct selling by approaching customers, convincing and selling them toys for kids and T-shirts. I was very much interested!
On the day of Maha mandi i.e. 31st July, when I somehow pulled myself out of the bed early, it was raining cats and dogs (of course…its July and its Mumbai). I wondered how difficult it would be trample down the streets and sell in pouring rain. I got ready quickly and ran to gulp down some breakfast. Nitie bus was suppose to come by 8:15 a.m. Since the bus was late, we like diligent, responsible sales people started with our selling right in our SIMSR academic block. There I realized how business can get harshly competitive or rather mean too. I and my mandi partner Harshit,targeted people who were free and steered away from those who were already being persuaded by other mandiians.As we spent time and energy trying to convince them with all our heart, the moment he was ready to buy a classmate of mine emerged from nowhere and sold off the item to him. It was like capturing someone's else's customer but then life or rather business is not all fair,that taught me to be alert all the time!
Then we strategically moved on to Polytechnic and Engineering blocks and sold quite a lot of items.
When we reached Nitie, Mandi inauguration was in full force. But seeing infra of Nitie we felt much more appreciative of our own college and hostel. That was a good feeling. In Nitie bus we left to western side of Mumbai. We played antakshari and had gala time in bus. We got down at Andheri. It was pouring thickly, we stood by the road under the umbrella trying to keep safe the mandi bag of goodies. As we wondered where to go, one option was "Infinity Mall" and we started walking towards that direction. Before boarding an auto I thought lets try our luck in nearby buildings. We entered a big official block which had lot of small, quiet offices. We stood outside the doors and tried to peep in and gauge the prospective buyer. I realized how challenging it must be for salesmen to muster courage, approach peple,sweat and toil and be ready for hearing refusal or bear disinterest of people. Many of those posh office people heard elaborately about all the items and at the end they just bought one piece of the cheapest item of all. Some doors had explicit "Salesmen strictly not allowed" written which somehow felt offensive. Some people were considerate, caring and bought in bulks. But definitely all had a word of praise for we management students who had given one day for this noble cause. And it felt like music to ears and left a very satisfying feeling. Every item sold, any word of praise lifted our spirits and made us happy. It was an awesome experience. In fact after having lunch, thanks to Harshit's initiative, we sold our last item a T-shirt to the hotel owner, a grandfatherly lean man who on hearing our social mission, instantaneously agreed to buy the "XL T-shirt" and sportingly said that he would wear it.In less than two hours our whole inventory was sold.We were ecstatic.Meeting so many people, talking, selling,taking snaps and getting drenched in Mumbai rain has left wonderful feelings and priceless learning. A good take-away was the re-enforcement of the fact that world is full of good people.
While we were returning to our college in local train an unfortunate accident happened.While train was stopping at Bandra station a man slipped on wet platform and came under the train.His one leg was badly crushed but he somehow survived.I had no courage to peep out and witness all that.I felt terrible thinking how delicate the life is and prayed silently. Fellow passengers talked for a minute or two on the misfortune of the victim and then got back to their own work.Train too chugged off in less than ten minutes.On one side a person life was devastated,on the otherside no matter what happens life just goes on....apt evidence!
I feel so glad that I participated in this noble event. True was its theme "Selling is the game, learning is the aim,mandi is the name"!!!

Saturday, July 24, 2010

In KJ Somaiya...

Ooops its been long time….important phase n its bad that I was not able to pen it down here…

So I am in KJ Somaiya Institute of Management Studies and Research, Mumbai.
Its been more than one month here. How it feels is difficult to put down in words.

The beginning was not so good.Infact I was feeling bewildered…sometimes lost…sometimes gloomy…sometimes angry….Frequently questions like -why did I leave the comfortable job , convenient infow of monthly salary,company of my near-dear one n land into the "wonderful life of B-school" kept coming in mind.The lectures on "mushrooming B-schools-fierce competition" and "first-deserve -then-desire" brought us on the hard ground of reality. Quizzes on current affairs made us realize how much more aware and conscious we must be…New faces around provided interesting opportunity of knowing new people but I felt exasperated at my natural reservedness that keeps me back in the beginning .I saw some people mingling fast, some forming groups , some very professional or impersonal , some very active and smart …a rich variety but still all unknown…. A voice within kept asking where will I fit?...Or will I ever adjust in there?

I kept going back to those big promises and ideologies with which I had weaved my dream of doing MBA, to have the most worthwhile two years of my life,to do my best,to give it all that it takes and emerge as a much better individual. I thought all that and told myself-"yes this is it,you are living your dream.Every minute is precious". This indeed, boosted my energy and propelled me to face all and move ahead.

Slowly as expected and wished it has all started improving. Our group assignments has made us work with our classsmates and know them better. There is more talking more understanding. There are ample assignments and presentations to keep us on feet. There is lot of information sharing,taking new initiatives and a good process of learning and un-learning….All of us freshers went to Lonavala trip and had fun.We had a blast in the ice-breaking event "All Izz Well" organized by seniors( in which we , PGDM-A,won the show and yes what a magnanimous feat it was...) and today we had Impression 2010 in which our dance group won the first prize..So all this has started becoming lot of fun…

I wish with all my heart these two years turn out really valuable n memrable one..
As rightly said on our Impressions T-shirt "A journey of thousand leagues starts with a single step"..!

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Time For Transition

April has started…my last month in Wipro. The count down has begun.
When I am not thinking about it, everything is just the same. The same story of day and night unfurling itself in methodical rhythm. Going to office, swiping in, logging into desktop, cycle of coding-debugging-coding, lunch break, tea breaks, meetings, complaining, gossiping, swiping out and back to home. The corporate life-hectic and draining in one way, secure and calming in other . All this coming to an end soon. Think about it and I feel a tingling down within. The transition from a professional to student is round the corner. Myriad thoughts come in mind, inexplicable emotions rear their heads.
Two years, four months and thirteen days in my first company have been memorable in a lot of ways. It gave me a chance to have a taste of what corporate life is all about. It took me through different stages of existence as a project engineer in an IT giant. The initial three months of training provided me a gentle transition from college to corporate by providing classroom training with peers, all of us freshers out of college with mixed feelings of pride, hope and wonder bonding us together. The initial days of assessments,tests,group activities,outings,fun and frolic are memorable. Then came projects which pushed us deeper into the corporate jungle. All vying to get good projects, fearing the much used word "bench", some wishing to be in project with friends, some fearing client interviews…..ah the plethora of feelings, ambitions and desires! Getting into project, heat of activities,deadlines,client calls, tickets taught me so much…..right from arranging innumerable mails in mailbox, to trying to comprehend the foreign accent on phone, to understanding office politics and tactics…experiences are varied! The journey started as a naive, missing meetings at times in the event of having ice-cream parties after lunch to becoming more responsible, professional organizing meetings/presentations…of course the journey of learning continues….The tenure started in Pune, let me have fun with a good bunch of friends, started me off in this career. Then it took me to the IT hub, Silicon Valley Of India, Bangalore for rest half of my IT experience. It was a different turn, a lot different flavour.The internal project had different work style. I learnt to explore,leran on my own without the so-called client pressure. The new place,less friends, relaxed work atmosphere made me strengthen my resolve for higher studies and enabled me to work towards it.Moreover,my first company is very special in many other ways as it made me meet some very special people of my life.
Now, with so many experiences/offerings/memories in my kitty its time when the rendezvous with Wipro would end soon. Though a good amount of time was spent in complaining about package,hikes,appraisal ratings,etc etc but looking back there is a soft corner, lot of good feelings and nostalgia. Going back to student life is not easy. With supposed carefree life of student(not for MBA student surely) comes insecurity,doubts,study-marks-placement cycle…..most of all it’s a major change…life moving from one phase, life of secure,cosy professional to another, a life of hard work, grades and unpredictability. In a book of life-a milestone. But then that’s the feeling between all new Endeavour and MBA for me is not just a money spinning option but the heart's calling.Inspite the inhibitions, there is more of enthusiasm, excitement and happiness for the path that I prayed for I got from the Almighty(thank u:))….Come what may it would be worth the try…And of course professional world, wait I am coming again in just two years….coming with a bang!!! :)

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Great time!

Recently returned from a wonderful trip of Tirupati-Ooty-Conoor.

It was a nicely planned and very smooth trip. We had no glitches at all!
Thanks to the planning and foresigtedness of Shubham and Dheeraj.

Also Lady Luck was on our side as we got a very good cab driver who took us to fantastic n comfortable hotels,restaurants and showed us all spots in a very well organized way.






Idea of going to Tirupati cropped in my mind which was later followed by visit to Ooty as suggested by Shubham,I kept nagging him for not taking me to different places/adventures so he wanted to make the most of the opportunity and definitely it turned out to be a very nice trip.




Darshan of Balaji was pleasant with not a too long wait of which all were apprehensive.We took ticket of Rs 300.
In one or one n a half hour we got the opportunity of having the glimpse of the Almighty.What a calming n peaceful moment it was!That matter of seconds view was powerful enough to leave a long lasting impact!One ironical fact that I came across in Tirupati was that the prasad of Balaji,the famous laddoos,were being sold in black quite openly.Rs 10 coupons of laddoos could be taken in Rs 50.Anyways Tirumala was beautiful with small glittering shops selling items related to deities,worship,etc.

Ooty was good though it was sunny.But being off season rates were low and place was not too crowded.Infact timing was good enough as from April i.e just in couple of weeks the on-season would start.We went from Ooty to Conoor in a toy train.We got up early,hurried for it,striking off "Dodepetta" from our itinerary to catch the train, though the train experience did not much turn out to be worth the pain.

Conoor appeard more beautiful and scenic than ooty.We even had a tour of tea making factory,had masala tea and saw miscievious monkeys(one snatched the packet of cherry from my hand!)






All in all we had a great time and a much needed break!!!

Also today I paid my admission fee in SIBM-B.
The first stone of my MBA career is laid!!!

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Try something....something new!

At times I ponder,think of numerous things
But most enthralling thought is thought about "Life"
Life is so thrilling, so strange
Its unpredictable,its brand new for each and everyone of us

If life is a novel,
Then are we just a reader ?
With no inkling of next page
Turning pages and reliving moments already written by Almighty?

Or are we the authers ourselves
Writing the story of our life each moment
We have the priviledge to write a life,a book as we wish
It might be boring with no events or richness of varied experience

Or it can be wonderful,with plethora of deeds done
Wide variety of feats tried,
Relishing the sweet and rejuvinating flavour of success
Or visiting the gloomy and heart breaking avenues of failure

Both the highs and lows,so important and so enriching...
Much much better than a placid lifeless life
Where no new thing tried,no new thought nurtured
No new talk told,no new view seen...

But the same days lived again and again
In same known predictable order
Same actions,thoughts,talks,behaviour...
Till one day it becomes too monotonous

You would feel like flinging away such a book
With nothing to keep you hooked
Feel of newness is refreshing and exciting
Something that fuels you to keep turning the pages

Its so simple yet hardly adopted
Haven't anyone felt the rush of pleasure in going down a new path
Road round the corner that we hardly took
But once taken, the childlike curiosity n joy that rises inside

We inherently have a yearning for the unknown
Or rather a change now and then,
A change from the mechanical urban life we have settled into
A change from the robotic life day in and day out

The wide world is beautiful and inviting
The nature is green and welcoming
Calling our soul to unite at moments of peace
Utilize our senses fully and live the gift of life

Days are flying by,
Work commitments and responsibilities are all around
In that lets atleast think differently
Nurture thoughts which can lead to some different activities

Lets each day be a present
Which is indeed limited,
Let it just not pass with d excuse of being too much tired
Or too busy or too responsible with "important" work

Lets make our life story a thrilling and enthralling one
Each day something new must be tried
Howerever small but it should be...
Lets be busy but not too busy to live!

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Love...

You know I love you
And I really do
Why do I love you
Just wanna share with you

Days and nights fly by
Work and responsibilities drive us in frenzy
Hardly ever gave me chance to say
What u mean to me I'll express this Vday

You make me complete,you make my day
If I am confused,you have shown me the way
I have fought with you,shouted and cried
But what I have admired,how u never gave up and always tried

You tried your best to care for me
Proof is I never climbed Wipro bus nor had lunch without thee
You let down your ego,the big male ego,a commendable feat
Changed your lifestyle to accomodate me in it...

A look at you fills me with pleasure
Your company is valuable beyond measure
Please dont think I dont realize
Getting you is indeed my favourite prize

I am so sorry for being a pest often,
I complain and complain and make u feel broken:(
I love you,love you and will definitely improve
Will give you no chance to feel sad or shaken

You taught me restrain,dedication towards goal
I was wild and immatured,you taught me control
We complement each other,like hill on fire
But my dear,a li'l adventure and thrill will take our relatioship higher

You taught me what is love, by giving yourself completely
you are unique,a sweetheart in million,the one and only
Lets make this Vday a beautiful promise with each other
To be together,madly in love,now and forever....

Friday, February 12, 2010

LEAVE or LIVE?

Life indeed is the most fascinating thing...It has got everything-suspense,drama,laughter,challenges,awe...Its puts us on a voyage where we move on with no inkling at all about what tomorrow holds.If we think about it we realize how absolutely exciting,thrilling and unique our existence is.As many wise men have said we have only one thing in control and that is the present.Live it to the fullest i.e in a fulfilling and happy way.Still most of worry,worry and worry thinking about the future which is so absolutely uncertain!Have plans and goals,work towards them,but dont dwell on them so much so that our present is affected adversely.I have strongly come to believe in the concept of living each day as it comes...we are out in a beautiful world,there is so much to explore,to learn...every nook and corner has wonderful experiences/lessons hidden for us.We should just have the eye to identify them in the process of our normal mundane day to day activities.
One such wonderful experience for me was during my visit to Pune just a few days back.I have been fortunate enough to meet nice people and make good friends in life with whom I spent some good days full of fun and frolic.Mostly people in todays world have evolved into beings who first by default think about their conveniences,work,commitments and priorities and after that they think of accomodating someone else in their hyperactive schedule(exception can be-family n bf/gf).If in such a world you meet someone who on his own accord goes out of his way to help you,he not only fills your heart with compassion and reverence for himself but inspires you to do the same goodness to others if the case arises.Helping or taking time out for someone by not distorting your timetable is no doubt good,but doing so by keeping someone else's needs above yours is divine.
As I was reaching Pune in late morning and planning to stay their with my ex-roomie I was wondering what to do after landing in the railway station.She left for office early morning and would reach home late evening.I had talked to some of my other friends and all expressed jubiliation over my coming to pune but hardly anybody enquired where I would stay or if I was having any problem.It just wouldn't have come into their mind.And myself with the nature of hardly opening my mouth even if I was in a fix was hardly of any help!Then there was this really wonderful bro,dear friend of mine(Kiran Shinde)...first thing he asked where would I stay?At what time was I reaching? Next he straight-away said he would come to pick me up and I dont have to worry.All my tensions evaporated and I was sincerely filled with admiration for him.When I reached Pune he came to station,took me home where I chatted with his mom(she did not know hindi and I did not know marathi but feelings dont need language to be expressesd),freshened up and had tasty lunch prepared by aunty.That dayhe left for office in the evening and I came along as I planned to join my ex-roomie in the office and return with her.I left my luggage in is car.Later he called me and told me he would drop my luggage to my home as he had to go somewhere.My home was really far from his place and yet he had no qualms about all that.He is one unique person who I see is ready to help always and game for any plans or adventures.Proof again I got that day when he came to drop the luggage around 11 p.m all tired from some shopping he had been to and he had to leave for Shimla the next day.Someone pipped in why dont we go for ice-cream,I said he would be tired....but he surprised me saying ofcourse,he wouldn't lose such a chance,lets go.Myself,always ready for outings was nothing but too happy.We all again bundled up things in his car n went for ice-cream party.He filled me with admiration for himself as well as helped me feel how nice it is to be of some help for others and always ready for action.I decided that day the joy he made me feel,come a chance,I would extend to others by going out of my way and spreading happiness.
Life is so short.Days and nights are racing by.Take time out of normal sleep,weep sorry work cycle and engage in different activities.Never know which will become a memorable experience.Real happiness is felt when you be of service to someone (known or unknown).Even an hour or a day is not short enough to leave an impact on someone's mind and change there life and thoughts for better.Dont leave any opportunity....explore,learn,serve....
DONT LEAVE,LIVE!!!!

Monday, February 8, 2010

First Call....

First experiences are always memorable and exciting...Hence the bliss that I felt on receiving the first GD-PI call of the season was heartfelt and overwhelming.A call is like an acknowledgement for the hardwork and preperation put in to get into the esteemed B-schools...the dream of all MBA aspirants!
My pleasure multiplied manifold as the call was from SIIB,Pune and I got a chance to revisit beloved Pune after almost a year in Bangalore.(Thankfully I got call from SIIB as my initial confidence of getting calls from all colleges I had applied to via SNAP was thwarted mercilessly,thanks to the high cut-offs..n guess what about a month ago I had called up all my friends telling them I was coming to Pune...SIIB saved my face :))
I love Pune more than all the places I have been to till now.May be because Pune has peaceful ambience,a perfect homely place with just appropriate splash of suburban lifestyle n metropolitan comforts,compared to Bangy the cost of living is reasonable,it has many wonderful places to go around or may be my partiality for the city is because it gave me a chance to have a terrific friends group and we always had a blast together.Whatever, I was bubbling with expectations and excitement of going there.....the moment I stepped on the platform I felt exhalirated.It seemed I had never been away....the city looked so welcoming n just the same - dear and sweet.
I had total three days and wanted to absorb all that was around...I went to office,met all the friends,stayed in my old flat with my roomie who was the first contact I had made in Pune...the same flat in Aundh aroused the maximum nostalgia.I, entering the same house which I had found almost a year ago looking for accomodation for my friend and myself,as a guest now was weird.The same path towards Rohini Apartments that I had traversed hundreds of times,I was walking on them again but this time for limited number of times....in a couple of days I would be back in B'lore.I wanted to drink in everything around which I had taken for granted always...the small park at the side with seats where I had sat number of times and listened to Enrique's songs while returning from office looked so familiar n inviting though I had no time to sit.The bunch of kids playing was the order of each evening and that day too there laughter filled my heart...I clicked the view from the balcony and even the bedroom where I had stayed...which had witnessed me feel happy n melancholic,make plan for outings,talk over phone late into the nights...it was all so close to me...even the peepal sapling that had sprouted in balcony when I was about to leave a year back and had now grown a couple of feet tall...I touched the tender leaves n felt nostalgic...it was all so close yet so distant...for I had come as a guest..Yet wanted to capture all these memories in my mind n my camera...
I ate the 'gol-gappas' that loved,which they prepare with some khatta as well as meetha paani...I realized when you know your days in a particular place is numbered how much more you enjoy the simple joys n appreciate the little things...if only we could actually apply the same logic to our life(which indeed is limited) how much more we would enjoy each day!
The visit got over in a jiffy but rekindled feelings in my heart which can hardly be expressed exactly....and before I knew I was in B'lore again but then I had an emotionally charged up three days.Thanks to the first call...was the call from SIIB or from Pune itself?
(By the way interview had gone cool :))

Sunday, January 17, 2010

A Beginning...

Blogs look interesting, I am a novice at all this but heard a lot about it... let me try blogging.
Just wanna pen down my mood...not exactly an online diary but rather an avenue to bring out my thoughts...

Let today be the lucky day to begin with this novel idea of putting down my feelings into words...that too on a blog,seems thrilling!

Hmmm life a little low , no honestly speaking that would be an understatement.
I feel very low , thanks to the MBA entrance results . This year the cutoffs are touching the zenith . The better you do , higher it goes ,eluding and exasperating and very hear-breaking .

Qualified JMET and in jubiliation told everyone but now the news is rank is low so chances of getting a call is negligible or rather its tending to zero. SNAP was the best exam I had given , atleast in my knowledge, but SIBM-P result threw cold water over my confidence of getting calls from all the best colleges I had applied to . The cutoff was exorbitantly high . From about 76 last year to 107 this time! I, with numerous other aspirants were left dumbstruck(of course many resorted to crying foul over some fishy conspiracy , or SIBM being money pinching machines , insensitive etc etc). Well surely along with already high reservation for other caste quotas , now high number of seats given in management quotas , leave the general category students , even after scoring high marks , with no output ,seething with pain and frustration . So much so for preparing and giving heart and soul to get into the coveted business schools….

So spent the day sleeping mostly , didn’t want to get out of the bed because the idea of remembering there was no call from SIBM-P was hurting.Even cried…..memory of old times were awakened when I remembered I had cried when I could not get the rank I desired in school long back…or when I had cried my heart out when I was not selected in Loyola school for doing plus 2….that was ages ago..some moments when my otherwise resolute self had broken down…opening the flood gates of tears.Going back into study mode and facing competition after a break,refreshed those experiences far flung down the memory lane and again exposed the vulnerable self of a student whose ambitions and whole lot of future is at the mercy of cut-offs,marks or luck,a fraction of which going here or there can bring an end to the story....or atleast make it different from what you pictured,dreamt or worked towards....

Well well all this makes me sound like a weakling..:)
Hmm I collected myself...chanted "Aaal izz well"..
Other results are awaited….fingers crossed….!!!
That makes me feel better now...bingo it works..:)